hoyyyyyyyyyyy!woo.
hello,hahah.
i injured my index finger,pathetic.


lol,so anyway...
i've got nth much to post.
gimme a topic to post abt?hees! :D

well hello.i've decided to give my url back to friends and let them know i've this nub blog all along. laugh out vr loud.
hah, anyway..

i realised myself being not myself nowadays..
like.. i'm starting to have feelings on girls, not guys.
and.. im making myself more to guy.. like cutting guy's hairstyle, wanting snakebite, changing own personality to a guy's style..
damn.. what's happening to me..?

save me god,save me.

bleh, i dont know.
please don't lecture me or anything cuz i know myself the best. :)


so anyway, life have been good to me.
yeah, for once..

at least i don't have to suffer with misery by knowing the fact of my love one getting snatched..
but i know it's impossible for me to be her another half. heh

mentioned in my previous post, those small words. enlarge it if you can/possible.
hoh.

i shall turn myself off & go to sleep, bye.

i look out of the window,
look up to the sky,
raindrops dripping down,
it was a heavy rain.

i wasn't prepared for a real challenge,
yet the thunder shoots at me straight.
lightning goes blink,
and there i go, lying down on the floor, bleeding profusely.

my mind was all about her, yet she showed me this fact that she wants me to be her friend. :'(

i know i'm not suitable to you, i know im not. and i know you're straight. but no offense, girl & girl, it's still a relationship, boy & girl, another relationship too. no problems rite? sigh.
if i were to pretend to be a guy, will you be my girl?

hey, lol. as i've said. i hate blogging nowadays. ._.

all righttttt.
i'll start off with few days ago.

had serious moodswing as usual, cried just tht a lil bit. no one consoled me. i fucking forced myself to think positive, yea. ._.

i gotta say i love my family. lol
i can feel the love in it.
seriously, i've never felt this kind of feeling in my whole entire life.
is anyone willing to lend me your shoulders & just let me cry for once and for all? :'(
ruki, i guess you'll be the best partner for letting ur shoulder.


aha! okay.
so tday, was feeling real happy for few MINUTES
after that.
knowing the fact of.... smth.
my heart breaks into pieces. my tears rolling down. sigh.

im feeling sick, real sick.
tired of life.

what's the use of thinking positive when you have to fucking face that cruel fact? :'(

someone, knock some fucking sense into me pls.
ruki, best candidate to knock sense into me, sure you'll do smth to your this poor lil' lesb friend?

heyho.
hahah, okay. shud get back t my topic.
I WENT OUT W SISTER TDAY! (:
and we went t JP.
sat on bus. i was like "oh my god, my butt hurt".
but of course didnt say out laa. if not ltr paiseh. ha!
anyhoos, we went there for movies, so yup.
i'm lazy to post much so anth pls go my sister's blog thx.
hahaha.
k so yeh, we were roaming arnd.
after that when we were taking the escalator, we saw this erm, father & son? or gays? LOL
the old guy was actually pinching/poking/making the fats laa.
i was like OMG, gays!! hahaha
kk whatever, i know im mean X)

oh so yeh, we went toys 'r' us. i was damn retarded at thr, believe me. hahaha.
i took all those baby toys and made fun of sis. LOL

oh so anh, yadayada, went t toilet. after that came out, wanted to comb my hair. saw 3 kp kias keep on mumbling about me & sis.
IT WAS SO FxCKING DAMN OBVIOUS.
oh pls la, i was like. OH? IF YOU GOT THE GUTS, COME INFRONT OF ME AND SAY WHAT YOU WANT LA.
lol, of course i didnt say infront of them.
give them face, kay. haha

diaoed them while walking out.

okay, yadayada, went t theatre 2, sat on our seat. we were praying not to see those fxckers. hahah
and luckily we didnt.
so watched "butterfly lovers"
ye i know, long time ago movie.
but still, i love it.
yes i know, im crybaby. whatever LOL
i watched the ending and cried.
lol, how i wished im like them too. X)

but nah, guess i wont find it.

hoho, whatever. went home & on.
and... im off nw~ LOL
kk, BYE!

P/s: i'm still learning shuffling & jumpstyle, HAHAH. =DD



Nyappy!

This blog will NOT be updated unless people I'm really bored or smth. HEHE.
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hmm, few days time didn't blog.
Ruki was complaining about me being so lazy in blogging, lmao.
ye k so, i've nth much t post leh. lol.
just that these few days bad omens comes t me~
bah, whatever all right. hate it. LOL

gosh, im bored. lol
oh anyhoos, grats for whoever promoted t a higher lvl. good luck & work hard for next year~

all right. im off t sleep. recommendation of games pls?